hi mam just sat here thinking about you like i do every day.the pain never goes away and i know you wouldnt want me to be like that,but its so hard mam,when will the pain go.helen comes every month she finds it hard too,annette doesnt say much,but shes not been right since you went away.riet annie and hein still talk about you i email them all the time and they email me .somehow i feel closer to you when i keep in touch with simpelveld.love to go again but i dont think i can without you mam.maybe one day .sleep well darling love you so much and miss you,i always will.from willa nite mam xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx